What kind of person who loves to be alone? Indeed you’re right. The loner. The loner loves to be alone not because he is lonely but because he is just so comfortable with himself and with the world alone.
I happen to be one of them. I’m proud of it. I love to be around with people I am comfortable with. Yet, no pleasure could match the feeling I have when I am alone. Scary? Not for me. If you’re curious about the kind of person I am, let me bring you to my wanderings alone. If you’re like me, you could relate with me so easily. But if you’re exactly my opposite, just bear with me and see for yourself how boring myself could seem to be.
In my aloneness I love to go places. I love to explore deep, deep down in my heart. I feel so at peace whenever I’m in connection with that light deep within. Sometimes too, I just love to float. You see, I just have to lie down. I prefer in the bedroom since there is lesser noise and there is no one to bother me. I lie down, then I close my eyes. Most of the time I cover my eyes with a piece of cloth so that all I could see is total darkness. It is in this total darkness that I notice even the tiniest flicker of light. Then I put both my hands sometimes on my stomach, sometimes on both sides. I don’t know why, but I feel so at peace and more comfortable whenever I put both my hands on my stomach. There is that kind of energy that relaxes my gut. After I find myself so comfortable, I started to float. In my mind only, of course. I have not yet developed that kind of levitation. And if ever I could float while lying on my back, I might looked like being possessed. That might be the reason why it seems to be impossible levitating in that position.
Anyway, if my busy mind could not contain itself in the dark and keep on entertaining whatever thoughts that come upon its way, I escape into my most favorite secret place – my favorite getaway. This place is a place out of the blue. All I need to get there is just close my eyes, be still and go there. I don’t remember exactly how I find this place. All I know is I have been going this place for decades now. It’s just an ordinary one. It’s full of dry leaves. Whenever I find myself there I have to take five steps forward and stop on an area where dry leaves are much thicker upon each other. I slowly sweep aside with my right hand the leaves. A steel cover of a man hole becomes visible. With my two hands I pull to the right the steel cover. A man hole appears. I slowly sit down on that opening. First, my right leg, then my left leg. I put my feet on a steel ladder that leads down to the tunnel. Then I slowly inch my way downward. When I reach the fifth rung down the ladder, with my right hand I pull the steel cover to close the opening. There is also a handle under it. Then I continue to climb down. After I step on the twelfth rung my right feet hits the ground. Wow, deeper on earth I am. Though I am below the ground I am not afraid because I know I am on the safest place on earth that I know of. My right hand then reach for the switch of the light at my right at level with my ears. The light of the bulb is yellow. Nobody builds this place. God does. He built this place just for me alone. He brought me to this place. And it is mine. Now, when the light is on I could clearly see the way ahead. I then walk a meter only and arrive at a wooden door standing opposite the ladder. I just have to push that door slowly. And then, charan!
Paradise here I am. Welcome to my paradise. Here the tigers, the lions, the sharks, the crocodiles, every creature are my friends. I float on air. I flow with the wind. I swim the deepest sea. I swim in the clearest river. I sit on the rainbow. I bath in the rain. Here, I am not a queen or a princess for there are no maid servants. Yet, I am the happiest woman I can be. I blow bubbles. I watch the cool sunrise. I watch the gentle sunset. I lie on smooth grasses and wide prairie. I ride on a unicorn. I swim with big and small fishes. I ran with dogs and puppies. I float on the sea. I float on air, which is my most favorite activity. There are so many beautiful things I could do in this place. I couldn’t name it all. There are just too many to mention.
But for now, let me bring you to one of my most favorite activities – sitting on the grass in the prairie and watch the gentle sunrise. Take off your shoes; could you feel the smooth grass? Don’t be surprised if by just closing my eyes the scenery changes the way I imagined them to be. It is just part of God’s precious gift to me – giving what my mind hoped to be in my own paradise. Beautiful, isn’t it? Now we’re on the prairie. Everywhere are small hills and grasses. In our right are majestic mountains. In our left is the blue ocean far, far beyond. Let’s feel the fresh air. Gentle winds are blowing on our face. The wind is so cool you thought you are in an air-conditioned room. Come on, breathe the fresh air. Let out your tongue and feel the gentle breeze. You want to run? Let’s run. The grass is so smooth we are like running on a bear’s fur. There are no stones or tiny pebbles here so nothing’s going to hurt our feet. You want to shout? Shout! Shout the goodness inside of you, for here nothing could corrupt our mind. “I love you God! I love you paradise! I love you life!” See? I love shouting those words. And I love so much to feel the gentle wind. Let me open wide my arms, look up in the blue sky, and take a very, very deep breath. Hhhhmmmm….. Refreshing… Now the sun’s about to rise. Let us sit down and watch it rising over the hills in front of us. Beautiful. Could you feel it whispering your name and greeting you a very, very beautiful day? It shines on you. Feel it. Feel it’s golden color. Touch it. Touch the light. Be refreshed by its light. Be empowered by its light. See the birds at the other side of the prairie? Look at their golden silhouette. Look at how they move. Look at how they fly. I am so much mesmerized. Are you not? Beautiful. How I wish I could sit here in this way, with this scenery forever. Yet, in this paradise the only thing I have not power over is time. Time continues. And so this sunrise. For now, let us enjoy to the fullest this beautiful sight in front of us for it only lasts for a few minutes. Beautiful sun. And remember, the sun is just is. It’s our world that’s making it, the way we see it now. So we could also say, what a beautiful and amazing world we have…
You just discover one aspect in my paradise. Perhaps you might be wondering why in all of God’s creature there is no other human being you could see in there. Why? I invite no one. After all it’s my most favorite place to go alone. Remember? It’s the loner’s paradise. When I’m done with all the play and the leisure, I then slowly say good bye to each and go out the way I enter. When I’m in the open ground above I close again the steel cover of the manhole and put the dry leaves back again. Then five steps I take and open my eyes with a big smile. Wow, what a refreshing experience that one has been.
That was it. Now you have just been there. So it’s no longer a secret place for me alone. It’s our secret place. Care to borrow my place? Well, you could. Just make sure I am not there when you go there. By the way, you don’t have to ask me nor let me know when you’re going there. The only thing you need to do is be present with yourself alone. Do not think of anybody else including me. For if you do, you could never be alone because you are bringing someone in your thoughts. That’s a tip I could leave you for now. And if ever you’re wondering why I brought you there to this visit when I don’t like to invite anyone, it’s not for the pleasure of playing there with a companion, it’s for the pleasure of letting someone know how to enjoy oneself when you feel like it. Am also not afraid that you’ll take my place away from me, for you couldn’t. If ever you’ll decide to go there, God will bring you to your very own. It might look like my very own place but I know there would be some differences; for we don’t have the same eyes. Our paradise depends on how our eyes could see and how our heart could feel. It’s called privacy, and no one can enter. God created our privacy that only He has the access; for it’s the only way He can connect with us heart to heart .
That’s all for now. Thank you for the company.
Have a purposeful day!